My baby darling Manasa

Back in those days, stress used to frequently defeat me before Manasa’s birth. The reasons may be anything from official stress or my mom/society’s pressure for a baby or any other personal things.

even if there is no reason, I used be stressed when I did not go to work or sit idle at home. So thank God I was working and that used to help me a lot in relaxing myself. I had a wonderful batch of friends in both the companies I worked post wedding.

After pregnancy I started to work from home and during my 9th month of pregnancy, I quit the job. And when Manasa was 10 months old, I got a call from my old company and they agreed for working from home and so again started to work from home.

Its been more than two and half years now, since I have been staying at home and about stress, not sure where it went. Though many sleepless nights and few occasions when baby is sick are stressful, they come into a different category of stress altogether, not the one which I used to face, back in those days. Though the main reason for me working from home is my hubby, I am glad that I escaped from working mom’s guilt. I could understand the stress and guilt they might face. I am at least free from that, though I get paid lesser.

So I strongly believe that babies make a difference in everyone’s life. Its only because of my dear darling, I am stress-free after she came into my life.

Happiest Day!

Today became a special day for me because I spoked to one of my very my bestest friends.

Anitha… she was my dearest cousin from the childhood. Due to fate, she did a love marriage to a wrong person and her whole life became a mess. I am not going to discuss the details about her life, but then she has seen everything in life within her 30 years of age, which are not supposed to experience by anyone.

As the August began and friendship week started, I kept thinking more about her. And finally today I made myself free to talk to Anitha’s sister, got her number and spoke to her after 13 years.

Though we talked about the bitter things of her life, cried and all that, it was very nice to speak to her. We recollected all happy memories we shared during our childhood. We both understood how much we missed each other. She is sort of settled down in her life, after so much of ups & downs and struggles.

God, pls let her live peacefully at least for the rest of her life.

Theivathirumagal – A Must Watch Movie

This is one of the very rare excellent movies in Tamil. It’s a complete movie with emotions and comedy and without any commercial inclusions like kutthu-songs or fights.

You could read about the movie review in any magazines or websites, am going to record my own experience in this post.

When my nieces called me for the movie, I was actually thrilled to go, because I did not watch movies in theatres since two and half years. As my sister-in-law was there to take care of my baby, I was sort of ready to go but then little ambiguity was also there. As the nieces also forced me, I decided to go and booked the tickets online.

When we were on-the-way to theatre which is at a walkable distance from my place, my conscience was killing me for having left my baby darling at home. But then we just went and saw the movie.

OMG, such an awesome movie! I never expected such a poetic movie in Tamil. I used to wonder when I watched ‘Taare Zameen Par’, whether such kind of movies are possible in Tamil and this movie is an answer for that.

But then similar to TZP, this movie also left me crying from the beginning till the end. Every scene was reminding me my baby darling and as said earlier my conscience was killing me for watching movie by leaving Manasa at home.

After the movie ended, I was in a hurry to go home and I wanted to immediately see my baby. But then my nieces were curious to see Vikram, who came to the theatre and talking to the audience. May be because of age-factor, I was not at all enthusiastic to see him, but then those teen-girls were very excited. So some 15 mins were waste watching him and then finally I forced the girls to return home.

Though my darling searched me just once and then got diverted by my SIL and was playing the rest of the time, I could not accept myself going for the movie. I wanted to hug her tightly and say sorry. I was trying hard to control my cry, but then she was busy with her play and was not coming into my cuddle at all.

Then my husband asked me if going to the movie was so much important for me leaving baby at home. That is all…I could not control me anymore and I burst into tears. I said please don’t question me; I am already depressed by the feeling of leaving baby to watch a movie.

And no need to tell obviously that hereafter I will never leave my darling princess and go anywhere.

Hello everyone, please go and watch the movie. All must experience the movie at least once.